Saint Teresa Margaret
St. Teresa Margaret Redi of the Sacred Heart, O.C.D.
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Her Early Life
St. Teresa
Margaret was born Anna Maria Redi on July 15, 1747 to a large, loving Catholic
family in Arezzo, Italy. She was baptized the following day, the Feast of Our
Lady of Mount Carmel by V.R. Canon John Baptist, the brother of her father. Her
Godfather was Cardinal Henry Enriquez. She was a beautiful child with clear blue
eyes, golden hair and delicate features which might have caused one anticipate
for her a future as the lady of a manor and a life of leisure.
Her father Ignatius and her mother Camille were of the lower
Tuscan nobility but were not overly wealthy. Anna Maria was the second of
thirteen children. Her mother bore twelve children in fourteen years. The last
two were twins who lived only a few weeks. Three other children also died in
infancy. After a gap of six years the last child, Teresa was born. This child
was given the name in religion of Anna Maria who had died six years before
little Teresa’s birth.
Camille did not have a strong constitution and the strain of
childbirth left her a semi-invalid. As the oldest girl, Anna Maria was entrusted
with the supervision of the older of her little siblings while her mother was
busy in the nursery. Her father said of Anna Maria that she had a fiery
temperament and she was not above getting physical to maintain control over her
little charges.
Her father testified that he could clearly see that from the
age of five, Anna Maria had given her heart completely to God and she used all
her facilities to know and to love Him. In later years she told her confessor
simply that “from infancy I have never longed for anything other than to become
a saint.”
“Who is God?” she asked her mother, her aunt, her father… The
answers she received from the adults around her never fully satisfied her.
People told her about God, what God is, not who God is. When her mother told her
one day that God is love, Anna Maria lit up with joy. This answer at last gave
her some satisfaction. But then she wondered, “What can I do to please Him?”
From this moment her inexhaustible quest to love God as He loved her had begun.
It is touching to note that when this childhood zeal was brought up to her, she
replied in innocence “But everyone does that”.
Anna Maria’s parents were serious and pious. The family
circle was warm and loving. Family prayer and daily Mass were an integral part
of their lives. It appears that Camilla would have liked more social life in the
villa but Ignatius would have seen that as a waste of resources and time.
The Redi villa was an ideal home for a child with a religious
disposition and it is probably not an accident that all but one of the eight
surviving children entered religious life or the priesthood. The large
comfortable house had inspiring murals of the crusades on the walls of the
entrance hall. The bedrooms contained religious art. A striking fresco of the
Assumption was on the ceiling of Camilla’s room. Anna Maria’s bedroom had its
own altar where she spent hours in prayer, after bribing the young ones with
holy cards if they would leave her in peace. Sometimes they would creep back to
observe her absorbed in prayer. Her brother Cecchino recorded that he thought
she looked like a little Madonna.
The villa contained beautiful gardens and orchards. Anna
Maria could be found in the corner of the gardens looking toward heaven and
“thinking”. Close to the house was a chapel. It was decorated simply with
frescos from episodes in the life St. Francis of Assisi. Anna Maria took St.
Francis as her patron and was inspired by him with a love of poverty.
Although it was a peaceful and prosperous home, the children
were not permitted to be idle. They were expected to spend their leisure time
constructively. Anna Maria learned sewing and knitting and she was sometimes
found knitting a simple object while completely absorbed in prayer.
At the age of seven Anna Maria made her first Confession. At
that time first Confession preceded first Communion by several years. She was
very attracted to the sacrament and prepared for it carefully and received it
often. A conversation which took place while returning from Church and recorded
by her father gives an idea of her attitude towards the sacrament.
“I have been thinking about the text that was preached on
Sunday, the unforgiving servant. We come to the great King of Heaven with empty
hands, in debt to Him for everything: life itself, and grace, and all the gifts
He lavishes on us. Yet all we can say is, ‘Have patience with me, and I will pay
thee all I owe,’ while all the time we could never pay anything towards the
remission of our own debts, if God did not put into our hands the means to do
so. And then, how often do we go away and refuse pardon for some slight fault in
our neighbors, withholding our love, remaining aloof, or even nursing a
grievance against them, and building up grudges that cool charity.”
After this conversation, Ignatius, who already appreciated
the piety of this child, felt certain that God was calling Anna Maria in a
special way. From that point on he began to provide her with true spiritual
direction appropriate to her understanding. It was Ignatius who introduced Anna
Maria to the devotion to the Sacred Heart, a devotion which became one of the
central focuses of her spiritual life. The love of this father and daughter grew
deeper as their profound spiritual confidences expanded the already deep
familial affection. As an adult, Sr. Teresa Margaret would say “So great was the
good my father has done to my soul that I can truly claim that he has been my
father twice over”. It is a tender irony that in aiding the rapid spiritual
growth of this most beloved daughter Ignatius was preparing the path that would
take her away from him forever.
St. Apollonia’s Boarding School
At the age
of nine, Anna Maria was sent to the boarding school of the Benedictine nuns of
St. Apollonia’s in Florence. While other families of their status thought
educating their daughters was a waste of money, the Redi family was determined
to do so. His decision to provide the best of educations for Anna Maria and her
three sisters as well as for his four sons forced Ignatius to tighten the family
budget. One of their sacrifices was to give up the family coach. This was not
only a sacrifice in convenience but also in status. A coach was mark of a
family’s situation but Ignatius was not moved by such considerations. Young Anna
Maria was deeply impressed by this sacrifice and urged her older brother to be
very diligent in his studies in response to this generosity.
St. Apollonia’s boarding school, being Benedictine, was
simple, austere and unadorned. It was quite a change from the lush sun-drenched
Redi villa. But Anna Maria had wanted to attend St. Apollonia’s because she
heard that one could better serve God there.
The daily life of the school was likewise simple and austere
following in many ways that of the nuns themselves. Each pupil had her own room,
the day was regulated by the sound of a bell, and meals were taken in silence or
with the reading aloud from a good book. The course of studies was more in the
line of a finishing school rather than one of rigorous academics. Even so, Anna
Maria had some difficulty with her studies, especially Latin and mathematics and
it was only with regard to her studies that she was ever found lacking. She was
scolded for being lazy although she did apply herself to the work. Otherwise the
nuns considered her modest, cheerful and obedient and it was clear that Anna
Maria was very happy at the school.
She passed her years at school appearing little different
from her classmates. Yet Anna Maria was already working on a method of
perfection which was to last all her life and take her to the heights of
sanctity.
Aside from the noise of her younger brothers and sisters, it
was easy enough at home to slip away unnoticed and spend hours in prayer and
meditation to which she was called at a very early age. At home she could spend
time with her holy cards or alone and in thought in the corner of the garden.
She could pursue her program of holiness without arousing the curiosity of those
around her. The environment at school was quite different. It would be difficult
to continue her practices without calling attention to herself yet she was
determined to continue her spiritual progress while not appearing to be
different from any other student.
At the age of ten, Anna Maria was developing a well-balanced
program for her spiritual life. She saw the necessity of exterior conformity to
all the directions of her teachers and the practices of her classmates all the
while striving quietly for sanctity. Her method was to hide herself. She would
shun anything which would appear singular or attract attention. She would appear
no different than any other student, or better yet, she would pass unnoticed
while her interior life flourished.
There were two reasons Anna Maria wanted to keep her interior
life hidden. First, she understood from an early age that “the merits of a good
action can diminish when exposed to the eyes of others who, by their praise or
approval, give us satisfaction or at least flatter our self-love and pride too
much; and that therefore it is necessary to be content to have God alone.” The
second reason was in order to imitate the hidden life of the Holy Family. This
singular family appeared to the folk of the little village of Nazareth to be no
different from any other. This was Anna Maria’s goal.
But she needed help in carrying out her program especially
after making her First Communion. The nuns allowed her to make her First
Communion on the Feast of the Assumption, one month after her tenth birthday and
a year earlier than usual. Though she tried to hide her piety, the nuns had
noticed her devout and recollected attitude in prayer. They noticed her joy in
the presence of the Tabernacle and the deep sighs which escaped while she gazed
upon it. Sometimes tears betrayed her emotions as the older children went to
receive the Blessed Sacrament. And so the good sisters moved up the date for her
First Communion.
From that day she continually experienced movements of love
which impelled her to try to live a more holy life. Yet she feared others would
notice if she intensified her devotional exercises and this went against her
determination to remain hidden. She did not want to turn to the regular
confessor of the school for advice for the same reasons. Any extended time in
the confessional would arouse curiosity. In her need, she turned to the one she
called twice her father, and so started an extraordinary correspondence with
Ignatius Redi. He remained her spiritual director for the next five years until,
as the result of a retreat, she came under the direction of Dom Peter Pellegrini.
It is a great loss for us that Ignatius, obedient to her wishes, burned each of
Anna Maria’s letters after reading it.
Dom Pellegrini had great confidence in Anna Maria’s piety,
disposition for the religious life and love of God. He immediately endeavored to
help her “to soar in the way of God”. He gave her good reading material and
helped her to make rapid progress in mental prayer and the virtues.
It is a mark of Anna Maria’s intelligence that she succeeded
in her almost contradictory goals, extraordinary growth in holiness while
appearing to be just like all the rest. The proof of her success can be found on
the one hand, in the permission her confessor gave her to receive Communion as
often as the nuns, and on the other, by the general opinion of her held by her
classmates and most teachers that she was a good, but more or less ordinary,
girl.
At the age of sixteen as her time at St. Apollonia was coming
to an end, Anna Maria was finding it difficult to make a decision regarding her
future. She felt drawn to the religious life and loved the Benedictine nuns at
St. Apollonia yet there was something missing. A very strange and singular
incident put Anna Maria on the path to Carmel.
One day a distant acquaintance of Anna Maria, Cecilia
Albergotti, who was about to enter Carmel, paid a farewell visit to St.
Apollonia. She told Anna Maria she wished to speak to her but the time passed
and there was no opportunity to do so. However, as she was leaving Cecilia took
Anna Maria’s hand and looked at her intently, saying nothing. Anna Maria walked
back to her room with a strange feeling inside. Suddenly she heard the words “I
am Teresa of Jesus, and I want you among my daughters.” Confused and a bit
frightened, she went to the chapel and knelt before the Blessed Sacrament. She
heard the words again.
Now convinced of the authenticity of the locution, she
determined at that moment to enter Carmel and started immediately making plans
to leave the school. She was only home for a few months when preparations were
made for her application to the Carmel in Florence. She entered on September 1,
1764 a few weeks after her seventeenth birthday taking the name Teresa Margaret
of the Heart of Jesus.
Entrance into Carmel
The
community she entered contained thirteen professed nuns and two novices. The
religious observance in the convent was excellent and Teresa Margaret always had
high regard for the nuns there whom she called angels or great saints. She
always, to her last day, felt unworthy to be among them.
From her first days in Carmel it was obvious to her superiors
that she was an unusually mature and capable young woman. Because of her
spiritual maturity she was treated severely by the novice mistress, Mother
Teresa Maria, for the purposes of aiding her growth. Although Teresa Margaret
exercised complete control over her actions and attitudes, her fair complexion
which blushed bright red often gave away the interior battle she waged to
maintain this control.
The period of postulancy was usually three months but it was
extended one month because she developed an abscess on her knee. The ailment
required surgery to scrape the infection away from the bone. This was done
without anesthesia and the nuns marveled at her courage. Teresa Margaret however
chided herself when a small whimper escaped her during the cutting. She feared
that this ailment might cause the nuns not to accept her into the novitiate but
there was no cause to worry. The nuns had found her spiritually mature,
obedient, with a sweet and gentle nature. They considered her a gift and a true
daughter of St. Teresa. She was accepted by a unanimous vote.
It was the custom at the time for the candidate to make a
brief return to the world to consider once more the life she was leaving behind.
Teresa Margaret visited again with members of her family and spent precious time
with her father. There was no doubt now that their next parting would be
forever. If anything could have kept Teresa Margaret from retuning to the
Carmel, it would have been the pain she was causing her father. When Ignatius
brought her back to the convent those around her were alarmed at her pallor.
That evening she confided in her superior, Mother Anna Maria “I do not think
that it is possible for me ever to suffer greater pain than that which I
experienced in leaving my father.” She wept copious tears that night to the
point of alarming Mother Anna Maria and causing her to wonder how Teresa
Margaret had kept her composure through the day.
The next day Teresa Margaret was composed and radiant. Her
father however was overcome and moved to a back corner of the church unable to
watch the clothing ceremony. Later in the afternoon he was able to visit with
her in the parlor. He could see her flooded with the peace the world cannot give
and a joy no earthly pleasure can produce. He left her with an emptiness his
other children could never fill yet he was at peace and thankful to God for the
gift of this sacrifice.
The duties of the novices were general housekeeping and
various small tasks needed by the community. But even as a novice, Teresa
Margaret started the work that would take most of her time and energy for the
rest of her years in Carmel; that of caring for the sick. Of the thirteen
professed nuns, nine were elderly and often ill. Teresa Margaret started by
assisting the aged novice mistress prepare for bed each night. She then took on
the care of an ailing novice. More and more she spent any free time assisting
the infirmarian in caring for one or the other of the seriously ill nuns. Some
times she would move into the room of a sick sister to provide care during the
night. Aside from the required periods of prayer Teresa Margaret gave her self
to physical labor. Her work went far beyond what was required or expected.
A year after her clothing Teresa Margaret was scheduled to be
professed. The abscess on her knee reappeared. She wondered if this might be a
sign that she was mistaken, that she did not have a vocation after all. She
brought her doubts before God with simplicity and humility desiring only the
will of God whatever it might be. The abscess disappeared. When the time came
for her profession, with honest feelings of unworthiness she asked to be
professed as a simple lay Sister. This was not allowed but she kept this humble
attitude all through her life in Carmel and often helped the lay sisters at
their tasks. No duty was too lowly for her.
Theresa Margaret lived only four years after her Profession.
For two years she served as assistant sacristan but never gave up her work among
the sick. She was finally named assistant infirmarian though she had been doing
the job all along.
She loved this job and the constant charity it demanded for
she stated “love of neighbor consists in service.” Although “assistant” she soon
was in fact exercising full responsibility for the infirmary. She was young and
strong and seemed to thrive on the hard work. During her years of service, in
spite of her continued determination to keep hidden her gifts and graces,
remarkable incidences occurred: the miraculous healing which occurred after
Teresa Margaret, filled with compassion, kissed a sister weeping in pain; her
ability to converse with a deaf nun with whom no one else could communicate;
various cures which, though not miraculous were at the least unusual; and her
uncanny ability to know when a patient needed her no matter where in the
monastery she might be.
Her Interior Life
Teresa
Margaret had a rich, active interior life. The first tenant, as has been
mentioned, was to remain hidden, to keep her gifts and graces hidden from all
but her Lord while appearing quite ordinary to the world.
In her desire to prove her love to God, she practiced severe
penances; sleeping on the floor, using a hairshirt, leaving windows open in the
winter and closed in the summer, taking the discipline, etc. There was nothing
masochistic in these practices. She wanted to discipline her body and unite
herself to the suffering Christ. For her suffering was a way of repaying love
for love. As she grew she modified these practices and took as her motto “Always
receive with equal contentment from God’s hand either consolations or
sufferings, peace or distress, health or illness. Ask nothing, refuse nothing,
but always be ready to do and to suffer anything that comes from His
Providence.”
Her daily spiritual exercises were simple. She determined to
present a smiling and serene exterior no matter how severe her interior and
exterior trials. She practiced the art of never doing her own will for she
believed that “she who does not know how to conform her will to that of others
will never be perfect.” She would never offer an excuse for a fault or defend
herself when falsely accused. She wrote that “everything can be reduced to
interior movements, where the constant exercise of abnegation is essential.” She
believed that God would be found when God alone is sought. To that end the made
the following resolution: “I propose to have no other purpose in all my
activities, either interior or exterior, than the motive of love alone, by
constantly asking myself: ‘Now what am I doing in this action? Do I love God?’
If I should notice any obstacle to pure love, I shall take myself in hand and
recall that I must seek to return my love for His love.” As for love of
neighbor, she determined to “sympathize with their troubles, excuse their
faults, always speak well of them, and never willing fail in charity in thought,
word or deed”.
All these little practices seem to be no more than what any
good Christian should be doing. How simple and unheroic they are. Yet to spend
even one day in the minute by minute application of them would be more than most
of us could hope to accomplish.
One Sunday in choir, Teresa Margaret was given a particular
grace to understand the meaning of the love of God. While the community was
reciting Terce, the words “Deus caritus est”, (God is Love) were read and it
seemed to her she heard them for the first time. She was flooded with an
elevated understanding of these words that seemed to be a new revelation.
Despite the fact that she tried carefully to hide this sudden grace, all around
her were aware something out of the ordinary had happened. These words
occasioned a mystical experience which transformed her knowledge of God.
For the next few days the words “God Is Love” were constantly
on her lips as she went about her duties. She appeared so out of herself that
the Carmelite Provincial was brought in to examine her to see if she were
suffering from “melancholy”. After examining her he responded: “I would indeed
very happily see every sister in this community afflicted with such ‘melancholy’
as that of Sister Teresa Margaret!” It was only later that the community came to
attribute her “faraway look” to her habitual awareness of the presence of God
and His continual operations in her.
Night of the Spirit
This grace
was however to start a great spiritual trial for Teresa Margaret. She had always
found it impossible to return to God “love for love” as she desired. Now that
she had a mystical experience of the love of God the abyss between God’s love
for her and her ability to return that love sufficiently became a source of
increasing torment to her.
In a series of letters to her spiritual director Fr.
Ildephonse she wrote: “I am telling you in strict confidence, sure of your
discretion that I find myself in pain because I am not doing anything to
correspond to the demands of love. I feel that I am continually being reproached
by my Sovereign Good and yet, I am very sensitive to the slightest movement
contrary to the love and knowledge of Him. I do not see, I do not feel, I do not
understand anything interiorly or exteriorly which could impel me to love … no
one can imagine how terrible it is to live without any love when one is actually
burning with the desire for it.”
“This is a torture to me, let alone the fact that it requires
such an effort to apply myself to the things of God,” she confessed later. “I
fear that God is very displeased with my Communions; it seems that I have no
desire to ask His help because of the great coldness which I experience ... It
is the same with prayer and, of course, in all the other spiritual exercises. I
am continually making good resolutions but I never succeed in attaining some way
of successfully overcoming these obstacles which stand in my way and prevent me
from throwing myself at His feet.”
“The tempest has become extremely violent and I feel myself
being so knocked about that I scarcely know what to do if this continues.
Everywhere there is darkness and danger. My soul is so dark that the very things
which used to afford me some spiritual consolation are only a source of torture
to me ... I must do violence to myself in order to perform each interior and
exterior spiritual exercise ... Finding myself in this state of supreme
weariness I commit many failings at each step ... My mind is in such turmoil
that it is open to temptations of every sort, especially to those of despair ...
I have a great fear of offending God grievously ... I see that I do wrong and at
the same time try to follow the inspiration to do good and then I feel remorse
for my infidelity; and to top it all, I am not succeeding in conquering myself
because my repugnance is so great ...”
“The cruelest torturer of her soul,” wrote Fr. Ildephonse,
“was her love which, in the very same measure that it increased – hid itself
from the eyes of her spirit. She loved, yet believed she did not; in the measure
love grew in her soul, in the same measure augmented the desire of loving and
the pain of thinking that she did not love.” He was convinced that she was at
the stage of Spiritual Marriage. When he later heard of her sudden and
unexpected death he remarked “she could not have lived very much longer so great
was the strength of the love of God in her.”
Her Death
It is
suspected that Teresa Margaret had a premonition of her death. After obtaining
permission from Fr. Ildephonse, she made a pack with Sr. Adelaide, an elderly
nun she was caring for. The pact was that when she died, Sr. Adelaide would ask
God “to permit Sister Teresa Margaret to join her quickly in order that she may
love Him without hindrance for all eternity and be fully united with the fount
of divine charity.” Shortly after the death of Sr. Adelaide, Teresa Margaret was
indeed with God. It is believed that the cause of Teresa Margaret’s death was a
strangulated hernia. If so, it is more than likely that it was in lifting the
heavy, inert body of Sister Adelaide that she strained herself causing the
hernia. If so, it was a delightful seal to their pact.
In mid-February, 1770, Teresa Margaret wrote her last letter
to her father, in which she begged that he begin a novena to the Sacred Heart at
once for a most pressing intention of hers.
On March 4th she asked Father Ildefonse to allow her to make
a general confession, as though it were to be the last of her life, and to
receive Communion the following morning in the same dispositions. Whether or not
she had any presentiment that this was indeed to be her Viaticum one cannot
know; but in fact it was. She was only twenty-two years old and in excellent
health, yet it appears she was making preparations for her death.
On the evening of March 6th Teresa Margaret arrived late to
dinner from her work in the infirmary. She ate the light Lenten meal alone. As
she was returning to her room, she collapsed from violent abdominal spasms. She
was put to bed and the doctor was called. He diagnosed a bout of colic, painful
but not serious. Teresa Margaret did not sleep at all during the night, and she
tried to lie still so as not to disturb those in the adjoining cells. The
following morning she seemed to have taken a slight turn for the better
But when the doctor returned he recognized that her internal
organs were paralyzed and ordered a surgeon for a bleeding. Her foot was cut and
a bit of congealed blood oozed out. The doctor was alarmed and recommended that
she should receive the Last Sacraments right away. The infirmarian however, felt
that this was not necessary, and was reluctant to send for a priest because of
the patient’s continued vomiting. In addition, Sister Teresa Margaret’s pain
appeared to have lessened. The priest was not called.
Quotes from and about Saint Teresa Margaret. [1]
“Lord, I
shall be yours, whatever the cost, despite all repugnance.” Page 41.
Preparing to enter Carmel
... the Prioress
suggested that, for one intending to enter Carmel, she could think of no better
practice than “to accustom herself to mortify her own will in all things,
however trifling, and to yield willingly her own rights in order to convenience
others, pleasantly agreeing with their opinions, treating all with a genuine
kindness, thus making a continual and entire sacrifice of the self to God.” ...
Anna Maria (St. Teresa Margaret) had now, from an authoritative source, the
secret of the essential spirit of Carmel: the holocaust of one’s will, rather
than the rigid adherence to exterior acts and mortifications... Page 42
She who is silent everywhere finds peace. Page 74
She who desires peace must see, suffer and be silent. Pages 74 & 109.
Rather than continually dwelling on her misery and worthlessness, she merely let all thought of self fall away before the infinite majesty of God; and truly the most profitable and genuine way of despising self is to forget oneself altogether. Page 79.
However, self-knowledge unlike self-love does not depress with the sight of one’s imperfections. “I can do all things in Him who gives me strength,” she repeated with St. Paul, refusing to be downcast. God could and would supply all she lacked, and Father Ildefonse testified: “The effect of self-knowledge did not discourage her, but rather forced her to throw herself on the goodness and mercy of God. She said to me once, ‘From myself, nothing; from God, everything ... the smaller and weaker I am in myself, the richer and stronger I shall be in Him ... He shall be the more glorious in His mercy as I am more despicable in my sins and nothingness.’” Page 80
On her practice of poverty and detachment, Teresa Margaret framed the following counsel: “Always receive with equal contentment from God’s hand either consolations or sufferings, peace or distress, health or illness. Ask nothing, refuse nothing, but always be ready to do and to suffer anything that comes from His Providence.” Page 81
She who does not know how to conform her will to that of others will never be perfect. Page 83
Let the nuns take great care not to excuse themselves for their faults except when absolutely necessary. By acting in this way they will make great progress in humility. Page 84.
“Knowing that a bride cannot be pleasing to her spouse unless she endeavors to become what he wishes her to be ... I will always think of my neighbors as beings made in your likeness, produced by your divine love, redeemed at the price of your precious Blood, looking upon them with true Christian charity, which you command. I will sympathize with their troubles, excuse their faults, always speak well of them, and never willingly fail in charity towards them in thought, word, or deed.” Page 97
I am resolved to give complete obedience in everything without exception, not only to my superiors, but also to my equals and inferiors, so as to learn from you, my God, who made yourself obedient in far more difficult circumstances than those in which I find myself.” Page 97
“Habitual examination of
conscience”
“I propose to have no other purpose in all my activities, either
interior or exterior, than the motive of love alone, by constantly asking
myself: ‘Now what am I doing in this action? Do I love God?’ If I should notice
any obstacle to pure love, I shall take myself in hand and recall that I must
seek to return my love for His love.” Page 131
“Since nature resists good, even though the spirit may be willing, I resolve to enter upon a continual warfare against self. The arms with which I shall do battle are prayer, the presence of God, silence; yet I am aware how little I am able to use these weapons. Nevertheless I shall arm myself with complete confidence in you, patience, humility and conformity with your divine will ... but who shall help me to fight a continual battle against enemies such as those which make war on me? You, my God, have declared yourself my captain; you have raised the standard of the Cross, saying: ‘Take up the cross and follow in my footsteps.’ To correspond with this invitation, I promise to resist your love no longer; rather, I will follow you to Calvary without hesitation.” Page 132
On the Hidden Life
St. Teresa Margaret
can almost be named "the saint of the hidden life," so thoroughly did she absorb
its meaning and mystery. The life of Jesus and Mary at Nazareth is indeed the
model par excellence for all religious, but this silent and self-effacing saint
penetrated deeply into it, and gave its application such wide horizons that she
can really be said to have proposed something essentially original.
It is a commonplace to use the life at Nazareth as a type of the Hidden Life,
because the enclosed religious is completely withdrawn from the world. But in
this sense Jesus, Mary, and Joseph were not "hidden," at least not from their
neighbors and the inhabitants of Nazareth and its environs. Probably, like small
country towns the world over, everybody knew and discussed the least event
around the village well, and anything that happened in Joseph's house would be
common knowledge, as with everybody else. But where one can claim that their
hiddenness was absolute was that while all their exterior activities were
watched, and every visitor noted, so well was their interior life concealed from
all eyes, that they passed for the most ordinary and unremarkable among a
community that was in itself insignificant. The revelation of miraculous powers
in Jesus was received with shocked disbelief. They had known him since childhood
and could vouch for his likeableness, kindness, generosity, no doubt - but not
sanctity, let alone divinity! This was Teresa Margaret's method of practicing
the "hidden life." Everyone in the community saw all she did, talked with her,
worked with her, and were warm in their praise of her goodness and charity. But
the real depths of her interior life were completely hidden and were one day to
prove a revelation and surprise to these intimate daily companions. She passed
every minute under their very noses, so to speak, but managed to remain
unnoticed, keeping her soul's secret for God alone. Page 75
“Obedience,” said St. Gregory the Great, “is rightly placed before all other sacrifices, for in offering a victim as sacrifice, one offers a life that is not one’s own; but when one obeys one is immolating one’s own will.”… One may leave home, family, friends, renounce social position and material possessions, detach oneself from every created thing, but unless he dispossesses himself of his own will, the sacrifice is worthless … [and Teresa Margaret] developed what one biographer described as “the art of never doing her own will.” … She had a strong character and a warm, ardent nature, and she seemed to sense that the conflict between her own rebellious temperament and her desire for sanctity would be resolved by the perfection of her submission. Pages 85-86
“At the foot of the Cross,” wrote Father Gabriel of St. Mary Magdalene, O.C.D., “suffering becomes more a proof of love than a punishment. Teresa Margaret became a saint not through multiplying penitential exercise, but by having effected an uninterrupted adhesion of her will to the crucified Redeemer.” Page 135
Lest the fact that sympathy might provide some consolation - for it is well-known that a trial shared loses much of its cutting edge - she endeavored to conceal from those around her any pain or sorrow she endured, or the discomfort of fatigue, the weather, minor indispositions, or the small misunderstandings and inevitable frictions of community life. She continued to practice the incessant mortification of consistently presenting a smiling and serene exterior no matter how harassed she might be by interior sufferings or trials. Page 136
The grace
of Deus caritas est
One Sunday after Pentecost, on the 28th of June, 1767, when Sister Teresa
Margaret was officiating in choir, she read out the little chapter at Terce:
“Deus caritas est.” She had heard these words repeatedly, Sunday after Sunday,
for the past three years, but now it seemed as though she understood them for
the first time - or rather, her understanding of them was raised to an entirely
different plane. The verse struck her with the force of a revelation: “God is
love; he who dwells in love dwells in God, and God in him.” This dwelling had
been the goal of all her striving, seeking as she did to imitate the interior
life and hidden operations of Christ. From that day onwards the necessity of
proving her love by deeds became so compelling a force that it was obvious to
her sisters that some special grace had been given her. “Nobody comes to the
Father except through Jesus,” she said. “To come to God who is everything and
consequently all good, no fatigue must seem to us too great; we must not be put
off either by the difficulties we meet on the way, but accept bitterness and
welcome every kind of cross with eagerness. By these means, which are precisely
those of Jesus Christ, it is not difficult to come to the true God, to live in
charity, to walk in love.”
Despite her customary reticence and assiduity in concealing any graces or
spiritual favors, the fact that something out of the ordinary had taken place on
that Sunday morning was apparent to all. For days the young nun seemed quite out
of herself, and the sudden illumination that the words had sent flooding into
her soul is difficult to explain, because of the seeming triviality of the
incident and her own habitual silence about such things. It marked the beginning
of a new stage in her spiritual life, as Father Ildefonse was quick to observe.
From this time, he noticed that the quiet, self-possessed and reserved sister
appeared to withdraw even more into herself, becoming engrossed in a silent,
determined, and conscious awareness of the presence within her, and her
endeavors to attain to perfect union with Him. However, this withdrawal was a
purely spiritual matter, and there was no suggestion of cutting herself adrift
from the community, for she continued to give herself wholeheartedly to all, in
her services as infirmarian, in companionship and sympathy at recreation, and in
never avoiding her share of work on the grounds of seeking more solitude.
Speaking to Father Ildefonse one day, she tried to express to him something of
the significance those words God is love now held for her, but she became almost
incoherent in her emotion. “Just as the soul in the state of grace (which is
charity) is in God, God is in her. Just as the soul lives the life of God, so
does God in a certain way live IN her. And so it is that between them there is
but a single life, a single love ... God alone! The difference is that God has
all by essence, whereas the creature has it only by participation and grace.”
And, adds Father Ildefonse, “Note that these words came from a simple child who
had never studied and knew no theology apart from what her instinct taught
her.” page 128
Father Ildephonse reflecting on her death remarked “she could not have lived very much longer so great was the strength of the love of God in her”. Page 73*
[1] All
quotes are taken from God is Love (1964 edition) unless marked with an
'*' in which case they are taken from From the Sacred Heart to the Trinity.
Teresa Margaret offered no comment, nor did she ask for the Last Sacraments. She
seemed to have had a premonition of this when making her last Communion “as
Viaticum”. She held her crucifix in her hands, from time to time pressing her
lips to the five wounds, and invoking the names of Jesus and Mary, otherwise she
continued to pray and suffer, as always, in silence.
By 3 p.m. her strength was almost exhausted, and her face had assumed an
alarmingly livid hue. Finally a priest was called. He had time only to anoint
her before she took her flight to God. She remained silent and uncomplaining to
the end, with her crucifix pressed to her lips and her head slightly turned
towards the Blessed Sacrament. The community was stunned. Less than twenty-four
hours earlier she had been full of life and smiling serenely as she went about
her usual duties.
Glory Revealed
Teresa
Margaret had attempted all her life to remain hidden. In many ways she
succeeded. But upon her death, the veil over her exalted sanctity was lifted by
God Himself.
The condition of Teresa Margaret’s body was such that the
nuns feared it would decay before proper funeral rites could be accomplished.
Her face was discolored, her extremities were black, the body already bloated
and stiff. When her body was prepared and laid out in the choir later in the
day, it was almost unrecognizable to the sisters who had lived with her for the
last five years.
Her funeral was held the following day and plans were made
for her immediate burial. When she was taken into the vault however, everyone
noticed that a change had taken place in the body. The blue-black discoloration
of her face was much less noticeable. The community decided to postpone the
burial. A few hours later a second examination showed that the entire body had
regained its natural color. The nuns were consoled to see the lovely face of
Teresa Margaret looking just as they had known her.
They begged the Provincial’s permission to leave her unburied
until the next day, a request which he, dumbfounded at this astonishing reversal
of natural processes, readily granted. The final burial of the body was arranged
for the evening of the 9th of March, fifty-two hours after her death. By that
time her skin tint was as natural as when alive and in full health, and the
limbs, which had been so rigid that dressing her in the habit had been a
difficult task, were flexible and could now be moved with ease.
This was all so unprecedented that the coffin was permitted
to remain open. The nuns, the Provincial, several priests and doctors all saw
and testified to the fact that the body was as lifelike as if she were sleeping,
and there was not the least visible evidence of corruption or decay. Her face
regained its healthy appearance; there was color in her cheeks. Mother Victoria,
who had received the profession of this young nun, suggested that a portrait
should be painted before the eventual burial. This was unanimously agreed to,
and Anna Piattoli, a portrait painter of Florence, was taken down to the crypt
to capture forever the features that now in death looked totally life-like.
The Carmel burial vault was a scene of much coming and going
during these days, and had assumed anything but a mournful atmosphere. By the
time the painting was completed, a strange fragrance was detected about the
crypt. The flowers that still remained near the bier had withered. But the
fragrance persisted, and grew in strength, pervading the whole chamber. And
then, miles away in Arezzo her mother Camilla also became aware of an elusive
perfume which noticeably clung to certain parts of the house.
During the next two weeks several doctors and ecclesial
authorities came to the crypt to examine the body. As the days continued to pass
the body regained more and more the characteristics of a living being. The
Archbishop of Florence came on March 21 to make his own examination. The body
was now totally subtle. Her bright blue eyes could be seen under lids slightly
opened. Finally a little moisture collected on her upper lip. It was wiped off
with a piece of cloth and rendered a “heavenly fragrance”. The Archbishop
declared: “Extraordinary! Indeed, it is a miracle to see a body completely
flexible after death, the eyes those of a living person, the complexion that of
one in the best of health. Why, even the soles of her feet appear so lifelike
that she might have been walking about a few minutes ago. She appears to be
asleep. There is no odor of decay, but on the contrary a most delightful
fragrance. Indeed, it is the odor of sanctity.”
Teresa Margaret was finally buried eighteen days after her
death. The report of miracles attributed to her intercession began immediately.
Thirty-five years later, on June 21, 1805, the Feast of the Sacred Heart, the
incorrupt body of St. Teresa Margaret was transferred to the nuns’ choir in the
Carmel of Florence where it remains to this day
Prayer to
Saint Teresa Margaret
O seraphic Saint Teresa Margaret, you consumed your earthly life
so quickly experiencing that God is Charity and that the Sacred Heart of Jesus
is an ardent furnace of love, obtain for us to be inflamed like you, by a
fervent, generous and holy life. O Angel of Carmel, intercede for us so that
your virtues of humility and innocence, penance and charity, with which you
offered yourself virginally to the Lord, may be ours too, so that our life may
be totally consecrated to the perfect service of God. Amen.
Prayer II
Father, you enabled Saint Teresa Margaret Redi to draw untold resources of humility and charity from the fountainhead, our Savior. Through her prayers may we never be separated from the love of Christ. Grant this through our Lord Jesus Christ, your Son, who lives and reigns with you and the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever. Amen.